You set your traps on sacred ground
aiming your speed gun at us
as we drive along, traveling traditions.
These roads are so familiar they mirror
the wrinkles on our hands.
Networks of memories
as intricate as a spider's web.
We know these roads
but you try to control them.
We, and our roads
are too wild and free,
for you to handle at least.
You set your rules and limits
and then sit waiting, ready to ambush.
But we know these roads better than you do,
we know their curves and turns
their ups and downs,
just as well as we know ourselves.
We know your hiding places
and we can guess your next moves
Bu you can't out-think us
In recent days
I've seen you try,
I think.
I've heard those few
small
things you've said
before you're gone
again.
And still my tears
fall to paper
becasue I wonder
why
is it so hard
for you?
It's out of necessity
that I call.
My need to survive
the next 15 minutes.
But I shouldn't,
I shouldn't dial the numbers
that even my fingers
have memorized.
Every color has a personality,
quirks and characteristics.
Some you can trust
and some are mysterious.
Blue
is all on its own,
the lone stranger
somehow tied in.
You can't trust Blue
but I can.
Forgive me
for I am flawed beyond repair.
I tried to follow in those footsteps
but my feet couldn't figure it out.
Faltering and fumbling
I'm failing to find my way.
These are the nights
when the thoughts rise like fog.
They cover my mind, snaking into each crevis.
I wander helplessly with my vision so blurred.
I drown in tears as my mind drowns in sorrow.
I swim and I swim but barely get a breath
before I'm sucked back down.
All night long, I choke and I strugle
Until I wake in the morning
on a beach in Nowhere.
My words lack their meaning
every time they are spoken.
No one understand them
or hears what they are saying.
The world misinterprets me
as people twist and flip my mutterings.
My message becomes convoluted and strange
and I become the monster.
You set your traps on sacred ground
aiming your speed gun at us
as we drive along, traveling traditions.
These roads are so familiar they mirror
the wrinkles on our hands.
Networks of memories
as intricate as a spider's web.
We know these roads
but you try to control them.
We, and our roads
are too wild and free,
for you to handle at least.
You set your rules and limits
and then sit waiting, ready to ambush.
But we know these roads better than you do,
we know their curves and turns
their ups and downs,
just as well as we know ourselves.
We know your hiding places
and we can guess your next moves
Bu you can't out-think us
In recent days
I've seen you try,
I think.
I've heard those few
small
things you've said
before you're gone
again.
And still my tears
fall to paper
becasue I wonder
why
is it so hard
for you?
It's out of necessity
that I call.
My need to survive
the next 15 minutes.
But I shouldn't,
I shouldn't dial the numbers
that even my fingers
have memorized.
Forgive me
for I am flawed beyond repair.
I tried to follow in those footsteps
but my feet couldn't figure it out.
Faltering and fumbling
I'm failing to find my way.
Temptation shimmers
in its sleek silver form
The candle light flickers
on its shinny surface-
The idea slithers
through my mind.
And then I see myself;
A saddened reflection
on the cold slice of metal-
Guilt storms my soul.
I slide
back under the water.
Even as children never the kind to be close
The awkward movement, hand against hand
I say nothing, still feel it, the taste of my blood
You swig your whisky, silent, not at all strange:
Two near-men, we stagger through city dark
Fall in your talk of fear, and loss, and Gods
Is perverse the right word? Maybe - these Gods
Have always held you, captivated, too close
To another book, your lamp spearing the dark-
Midnight, wanna sleep, your blue-tinged hand-
Each to his own, his heroin, yours the strange
Carried through your veins; your heart craved blood.
That saying has always haunted me: blood
Runs thicker than water, I wonder, tho
The corner of your mouth
Tilted, just for a moment
And we breathed out
At the same time, while your knee
Pressed against mine, but
You remembered yourself
Just in time, and moved away.
The air tastes like a day at the beach
Sandy chips, some kind of montage where we kiss
It's a beautiful day
Lets run away
Please dance with me.
Your smile rinses the whole world away
Watch all the greys wash down the drain
Tonight I feel so cold
Got no money to burn
Your eyes are beautiful.
And is there something wrong with me?
I can't seem to tell anymore
What's dreams and what's reality
There'll be a price to pay.
There's fragments of you in everything I do
Sweeping a goodbye under the mat
Your scent's in every room
Like cigarette smoke or my favourite perfume
Tell me, darling
What would you do?
Valentines Day :here we go again: by BackIntoTheSun, literature
Literature
Valentines Day :here we go again:
I burst a balloon today (another
one gone by) just to enjoy
The symbolism of the thing
Pink foil in the shape of a heart
Scattered on the floorboards (it
wasn't meant to be like this
by now) were you thinking
Of me (you ruined me);
Eyes misting as you gazed
Into hers (wrecked) like I
Was thinking of you?
You were there
And then gone
Whisked away
Your face suspended
For a whisper of a moment
Through the glass
As though you would
Have smiled
But didn't have time
To compose your face.
When I think
In too much
Detail
(Something
I'm afraid
I do much
too much of)
Thinking of you
Punches a hole
Straight
Through my chest
Can you take
A break
And become
My stapler?
I sit in the cold,
and listen to the snow.
Oh the stories it has told,
about the things it seems to know.
It asks why I have become slow,
why I always have none to show.
I tell it thats the way it goes,
when all you have to feel,
is sad and alone.
I feel my heart was sold,
and my sprits have become old.
Why im afraid,
is something only god knows.
It may take a day,
for my life to break,
but until then,
ill watch the stars shake.
There was a hole near the edge
Of your kitchen table and I
Remember how you used to
Pick at it with your fingernail when
The conversation just turned
To words.
The sun rose up
On a lollipop stick
Still sticky, gripped
In a chubby hand
In a dusty cardboard
Theatre in the dark
Cobwebbed corner.
And lit it up again.